Wednesday had some short walks
Oct. 22nd, 2025 11:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
walkitoutM. and I attempted a walk, but it started to sprinkle, then rain in earnest. We returned to my house for a snack and chat, and then tried again and made it up to the top of the hill and back. Yay, us!
I picked A. up and we got to therapy almost on time. Woot! The yellow couch is gone from the waiting room, and we saw the replacement delivered but not set up. Very exciting!
I did some more research on treadmills, and I think I’ve got one picked out for the new house. But I’ve thought that before and thought better of it, so who knows. I also did some research on LED panels for under stone, and found one that will do a full cutout for a sink, so that’s pretty cool.
I had a long phone call with J. It was a little weird at times, because it was difficult to convey to him just how much research I had done on various dining options, and just how poorly the in park options were going to work for us. Also, he confused Plaza Inn and Carnation Cafe. Easy to do! But also, I kept saying, I’m pretty sure you mean Carnation Cafe, and he kept saying he didn’t remember the name, but it wasn’t that one, and then went on to described the baked potato soup (still on the menu) and the location (hasn’t changed) which are both definitely Carnation Cafe. Ironically, that restaurant probably would work really well for all of us. Also, I don’t think he has on any level connected with just how fucking wedged the parks are going to be over Xmas. I don’t think he’s ever been there for Xmas.
He also had some questions about how PreCheck works because he doesn’t use it very often and forgot, and he also had not considered about the implications of older offspring aging out of being able to go through on his PreCheck. We walked through how to get older offspring PreCheck, and I texted that to older offspring later in the day, in hopes that will be more motivating all around. I also made sure everyone had RealID (the kids got their passports to go to Canada, a trip that was supposed to be this past summer but will likely be next summer, and J. has enhanced DL).
I was feeling really weird this morning, like I’d gotten slow and lacking in confidence about making decisions, because it was hard to motivate to make all the dining reservations, and also figure out wtf to do about the bar sink since it’s not in the mass plumbing db. Reddit has beef with that faucet because it’s crazy (true) and expensive (true) and thus only bought by people with no taste (really, reddit? Really?). That plus not being in the approved products database just left me feeling very meh. I found a Rohl I liked, not as well obviously, and proposed that, and then the HVAC / plumbing guy was like, hey, we can do it, and if the inspector catches it was can swap it out for inspection and then swap it back. The faucet has all the characteristics of an approved faucet it just isn’t in the db. Then I felt even weirder, because I was like, I spent hours coming up with an alternate, and for why. And honestly, it’s not even that expensive. The plumbing supplier came right back with a quote and they were doing cost +10% and let me tell you that is much lower than the Amazon price for it (and also the online overstock place).
So I really got some momentum on the idea that I’d lost the ability to make confident decisions, because I mean I’ve planned Disney before, and to California before, and with a dozen folks before. That plus the house decisions shouldn’t be that demoralizing. It took me a few hours to realize, but not DisneyLAND with the full entourage. That’s usually DisneyWorld, and I haven’t been to Cali since February 2020, and I haven’t been there for Xmas for a really long time (probably since the 70s?). I talked about it with R., and he thought the issue was getting things wrong (forgetting to make sure the faucet was in the db back when I first picked it, for example), but I have zero issue with being wrong. I just need to be fast and decisive and right a lot. That’s my magic — my magic is NOT in always right. But talking it out made it clear how ridiculous it was to feel incompetent while doing all this ridiculous shit. It’s fine to beat myself up about taking on this nonsense. It is not fine to beat myself up for how well I’m doing at executing on the nonsense. I am executing just fine.
I picked A. up and we got to therapy almost on time. Woot! The yellow couch is gone from the waiting room, and we saw the replacement delivered but not set up. Very exciting!
I did some more research on treadmills, and I think I’ve got one picked out for the new house. But I’ve thought that before and thought better of it, so who knows. I also did some research on LED panels for under stone, and found one that will do a full cutout for a sink, so that’s pretty cool.
I had a long phone call with J. It was a little weird at times, because it was difficult to convey to him just how much research I had done on various dining options, and just how poorly the in park options were going to work for us. Also, he confused Plaza Inn and Carnation Cafe. Easy to do! But also, I kept saying, I’m pretty sure you mean Carnation Cafe, and he kept saying he didn’t remember the name, but it wasn’t that one, and then went on to described the baked potato soup (still on the menu) and the location (hasn’t changed) which are both definitely Carnation Cafe. Ironically, that restaurant probably would work really well for all of us. Also, I don’t think he has on any level connected with just how fucking wedged the parks are going to be over Xmas. I don’t think he’s ever been there for Xmas.
He also had some questions about how PreCheck works because he doesn’t use it very often and forgot, and he also had not considered about the implications of older offspring aging out of being able to go through on his PreCheck. We walked through how to get older offspring PreCheck, and I texted that to older offspring later in the day, in hopes that will be more motivating all around. I also made sure everyone had RealID (the kids got their passports to go to Canada, a trip that was supposed to be this past summer but will likely be next summer, and J. has enhanced DL).
I was feeling really weird this morning, like I’d gotten slow and lacking in confidence about making decisions, because it was hard to motivate to make all the dining reservations, and also figure out wtf to do about the bar sink since it’s not in the mass plumbing db. Reddit has beef with that faucet because it’s crazy (true) and expensive (true) and thus only bought by people with no taste (really, reddit? Really?). That plus not being in the approved products database just left me feeling very meh. I found a Rohl I liked, not as well obviously, and proposed that, and then the HVAC / plumbing guy was like, hey, we can do it, and if the inspector catches it was can swap it out for inspection and then swap it back. The faucet has all the characteristics of an approved faucet it just isn’t in the db. Then I felt even weirder, because I was like, I spent hours coming up with an alternate, and for why. And honestly, it’s not even that expensive. The plumbing supplier came right back with a quote and they were doing cost +10% and let me tell you that is much lower than the Amazon price for it (and also the online overstock place).
So I really got some momentum on the idea that I’d lost the ability to make confident decisions, because I mean I’ve planned Disney before, and to California before, and with a dozen folks before. That plus the house decisions shouldn’t be that demoralizing. It took me a few hours to realize, but not DisneyLAND with the full entourage. That’s usually DisneyWorld, and I haven’t been to Cali since February 2020, and I haven’t been there for Xmas for a really long time (probably since the 70s?). I talked about it with R., and he thought the issue was getting things wrong (forgetting to make sure the faucet was in the db back when I first picked it, for example), but I have zero issue with being wrong. I just need to be fast and decisive and right a lot. That’s my magic — my magic is NOT in always right. But talking it out made it clear how ridiculous it was to feel incompetent while doing all this ridiculous shit. It’s fine to beat myself up about taking on this nonsense. It is not fine to beat myself up for how well I’m doing at executing on the nonsense. I am executing just fine.