Thursday: talking about feelings

The architect, meanwhile, has sent missives to everyone because he (legitimately) can tell I’m feeling aggravated by him and proposing that we bring in an interior designer. I have super complicated feelings about this, but mostly, it would definitely increase the communication load on me (another person I have to talk to, convey my preferences to, solve problems with) and it would likely increase the amount of driving I have to do. For the most part, the things that I have been bringing up with the architect are not even specifically interior design. Like, _yes_ the lighting turned into an interior design issue, but it was at its base a functional preference on my part NOT to have anything to do with Lutron. But then there are other things like going over the power requirements with the electrician, and insisting on house batteries. Those just aren’t interior design issues. Altho putting wall tiles on the floor — might have helped to have an interior designer involved in that discussion. *shrug* The builders then called me, and wanted to talk about bringing in an interior designer and boy, that was uncomfortable. We discussed where the architect is at in terms of being overwhelmed, and what we might be able to do to help him feel better. I _wanted_ the architect to feel discouraged enough to quit arguing with me when I said, hey, no lights behind fans visually because seizure risk. The trick will be to guide him into feeling better without getting back into that dynamic of him just merrily ignoring my preferences.

Like, really, are we going to find an interior designer more effective at talking back to the architect than me. Doubt it. They’d probably just quit in a huff, honestly. We’ve been through a series of engineers, and I no longer think that’s just the engineers’ fault.

I never wanted to be a manager. Fairly certain this is why. Oh well!

I had a visit with M.

The handles came in! I pick them up today. Woot!

Also, I put R.’s proposals for rearranging Bathroom 6 up along with one of my own. We’ll see where that goes. It is so weird being able to see multiple people viewing that slide deck. So. Weird.