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2025-02-06 04:09 pm

Thursday is a snow day, but zoom means school goes on

I wound up waking up early to try the new schedule with A., realizing it was a snow day, and going back to sleep until the normal wake up time.

I helped her get through the Wellness class multiple choice inventories, and then get her comments on the process wedged into the required response along with some explanation of how the responses were generated. A. has the same issues I do with these things, so I’m teaching her the Pick the Middle Option unless you feel strongly otherwise. But it helps the person doing the interpretation to KNOW that’s what was done and why, because it can impact interpretation.

She did her two classes. I made her a grilled cheese for lunch. I also had a zoom scheduled regarding her next year’s classes at Fusion, which went extremely well. They are always very nice, but the first time we did this, we were doing a mid-year (April) start, and recovering from a relatively catastrophic transition to high school. By attending in the summer, A. was set up for a reasonable sophomore year. Because this year is going smoothly, she’s actually in really good shape for junior year, which is lovely. She won’t have to attend summer (and will not be attending this summer). They are considering doing some small group classes, and I indicated interest, because I figure that would actually help A. transition back to small group for college.

I listed the ring light and the ducks. The ring light has a scheduled time and date for pickup; the ducks are weird. Everyone indicates some degree of interest, but no one is willing to commit to a time and date for pickup. *shrug*

In the course of going through various spaces, I realized I had framed storyboards from JM’s photos over the years in two different places. So I’m moving them from the basement to the closet on the third floor. While I was doing that, I sorted through pictures and did a little updating. I have had on the to do list redoing the upstairs hall for over a year, but rather than doing that Just In Time to have to take it all back down for construction stuff going up and down and through that hall, I just did some minor editing and adjusting with a view to reducing pictures sitting on top of shelves. I also organized the not currently in use frames, so I have a better sense of what’s available. And I got the flower art back up, which is nice.

ETA:

I finally have a scheduled date and time for the ducks (tomorrow at 10 am). Yay! And I have a backup willing to pick up tomorrow also. Two different people asked if I would ship (no! Local pickup only! It’s free, come on!). And one person was so bold, they asked if I would meet them in a town that is 30 miles away and conservatively a 45 minute drive. Do I go there for the dentist four times a year? Yes! To drop off ducks? Heck no.
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2024-05-10 12:53 pm

Friday: walk, homework

Last night I wound up spending about 5 minutes with A. helping her get something together for her late English assignment. The assignment was about character strengths, weaknesses and motivations. All the hardest things for anyone on the spectrum. We’d talked about it earlier, but she can’t retain the information because it doesn’t fit into anything inside her head. Which I will now need to puzzle out a way to help her with.

This morning, I spent 10 or so minutes with A. helping her get something into the slides for a World History presentation. We didn’t do one slide, because the materials she was working on didn’t cover that part, and so I was not interested in doing further research and suspect she misunderstood something anyway. The assignment was the rise of Mussolini, and she didn’t understand that “rise” in this context means “gains power”. So many questions about how many things out there people just don’t understand.

Anyway, I saw in there a couple sentences about the deal Mussolini made with the Pope to recognize Vatican City as an independent polity or country or WTF. At this point in my life, I know about Kennedy, I know just how large Coughlin’s following was, etc., so there’s no way you are going to convince me the Pope wasn’t super happy to support Mussolini. But there was still a sentence in there about how the Pope didn’t agree with everything about Mussolini. Of course, when I mentioned this to R., he — raised Catholic, quit in college — rattled off the older explanation about how the Pope supported Mussolini because he was at risk of being captive instead cue medieval history explanation. I just asked, okay, but, this is a time of communists vs fascists, and I’m being asked to believe that Hitler running a pogrom, Mussolini being Mussolini, Coughlin doing his thing in the US and Kennedy trying to get England to enter the war on the side of the Germans — in that world, the Pope is afraid of his followers? Really? Only after the war is over, and we find out just what everyone did does the Pope display any kind of concern. Once this was pointed out, R. agreed that yeah, this is just leftover propaganda, and then he told me about the Shenandoah school board putting slaver names back on schools. Gross, but mostly relevant. With Ilyon Woo winning a Pulitzer, Kingsolver’s Demon Copperhead, Larsen’s Demons of Unrest, I may have to find a new thing to annoy people with, since I think my line about how did the civil war start / the south shot first isn’t going to find anyone unable to rattle off the punchline as soon as I start the question. Maybe I’ll go with something about the Pope and Mussolini.

I have mixed feelings about helping A. with her homework, but the amount of time involved is absolutely _tiny_ (unless you count conversations about Romeo and Juliet, which are _endless_, and we’ve now deployed the Folger side by side, which is terrible, the Arden side by side, which is good, and the Riverside complete, which we had and is decent), and I’m getting some insight into how A. thinks about people and events, and seeing some of the gaps that a school is really going to struggle to perceive — gaps which are really important to figure out a way across for her, if life is ever gonna make any sense to her. Which is by no means guaranteed.

I also dug into TECCA / Connections Academy, the backup plan if Fusion doesn’t work. I knew it was “free” to all K-12 students in Massachusetts and a public school. In conversation with R., the question arose: is it a charter school. Answer, yes! The sponsor is a multi-town cooperative, which is a 501c3, so you can donate to it, and the co-op has a campus and some in person services and stuff, too, which I hadn’t realized. I’m still exploring to what degree Pearson is a vendor for this, versus Pearson is using this as a foot-in-the-door. I mean, if I were Pearson, I know what the answer to that would be.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Connections_Academy

ETA:

I walked with M.

R. went to pick up A., so I only had to drive there once today. Woot!

I read _People in Glass Houses_, a Jayne Castle / JAK Harmony novel, set in and around Illusion Town, first of what looks like a duology. JAK does some gothic/horror vibe stuff, but it all has her characteristic sense of humor, lack of gore, etc., so it’s still fun for me, anyway. Another example of JAK fully embracing the Jayneverse, so lots of tidbits for long-term readers to pick up on.
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2024-05-07 05:53 pm

Tuesday: warm! 2 walks, MEPFP meeting, school

I walked one mile with R.

I walked one mile with M.

I took A. to and from school.

I did the MEPFP meeting before school.

I fixed a payment problem on the zon and then I got my pre-ordered JAK (_People Who Live in Glass Houses_) and am enjoying reading it. It is funny with gothic/horror elements, but in an Illusion Town context. Fun!

I also poked around a bit to better understand K-12 digital textbook type products. I found Pearson’s Connexus, and then went looking to see who might be using it and discovered that TECCA seems to use it. Convergence! Love it! Also makes that particular backup plan look _really good_. Not that we’re gonna need it, but still.

Also, the whole “Discovery Education”, Clearlake, acquisition spree in EdTech thing is kinda wild. Dunno what to think there honestly.

ETA:

I went to part of Day 2 of Town Meeting. I skipped Day 1, because there were so fucking many people there that one vote didn’t seem likely to make any difference. I honestly could have skipped today, too, even tho there were way fewer people. We did get all the zoning stuff passed; it turns out a lot of the resistance departed after Article 12. I left after Article 13, so I could shepherd A. through the night time routine. She is pretty frosty at R. and me, and hilariously grateful to T. for giving a good estimate of my return home time.

Fortunately, tomorrow’s school starts at 11:30 for her and I _think_ I don’t have any meetings in the morning.
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2024-04-11 12:06 pm

Thursday: first day! and a cartoonish phone call

A. is at Fusion for her first day; we are very excited and hopeful.

Meanwhile, I finally emailed the counseling office at ABRHS again to try to finalize the withdrawal process.

I had sent the counseling office this email on March 20:

“We’ve been working through both identifying some neurological problems she has been having and also finding a different school for her which we think will be less triggering for the problems she has been having.

Today, we enrolled her at Fusion Academy Burlington. We do not yet have a start date for her, but I expect we’ll be figuring that out over the next few days.

We’re not really sure what the process is at this point, but we understand at some point we’ll be withdrawing her from ABRHS but we do not want to withdraw her from special ed.

I’m not really sure what my next couple of days are like. They are currently open, but if we hear back from the neurologist about the results of the EEG, that could change; also, if we have an appointment happen with the new school that could change.

Please let me know how I can help this process go smoothly for everyone.”

The next day I got this response:

“Thank you for reaching out! I am cc'ing here our counseling support staff, xxx and xx, who can assist you with the withdrawal process so it goes smoothly for you all and especially for A. I am sorry to hear she is experiencing neurological problems and hope that things get better!”

And that was the last I heard from them.

In the event, I didn’t have an official start date for A. until Tuesday (of this week) and there was no school at ABRHS on Wednesday (and we were in transit on Tuesday anyway), so I punted until today on poking the school about the withdrawal process. I emailed all three of the people in the counseling office, sat and thought for a moment, noticed I had an extension for the counseling office, and called it. I got xxx, and said, how do I do this, and she was, have your student go fill out the form. I’m like, she hasn’t been there since March. And then xxx says, well, the usual process is to have the student go fill out the form. I just let the pause stretch because, I mean, what, time machine requirement now? On brand as a requirement. I ask if I should come in, and that doesn’t get a better response — something like, you should have told us sooner, and I’m like, _I sent the department email on March 20_, and have not yet heard back and you should have that in your email on March 21.”

Anyway.

Registrar — who had been _awesome_ about rapidly turning around the transcript for the initial application to Fusion early on in this process — called me back, and was generally easy to deal with, and then called me back again to say, drop off the stuff at the front desk, fill out the form there, I sent the official transcript to Fusion and removed A. from PowerSchool. Which, you know, is really all I was looking for here.

As I noted to the Registrar on the first of those two phone calls, I’m not at all sad about pulling my daughter out of a school that pulls shit like this. How overwhelmed are they, over there, one has to ask, but one does not have to stick around for the answer.

ETA:

So, I went into the school and the form was sitting there but it was super unclear what all I was supposed to do at this point. Apparently, withdrawal from school forms really are signed primarily by the student? I’m just like, aaaanndd even when they have an IEP? I mean, the whole thing feels like some weird bad joke of a process. There _is_ a line for the parent to say, “I know my kid is doing this.” But what a ridiculous thing.

Anyway.

I was sent to the library with the form to drop off the Chromebook, stylus and charger. The librarian nearly left the charger at circulation, but I was like, you’ll want that too, right? She was trying to find the stylus without telling me, but I figured it out and handed her that box. She was happy about that. We took them back to someone in another back room at the library, and _that_ person was much younger, and quite clearly used to this process not going well which honestly cheered me enormously. And obviously, people were happy to get the stuff back which, predictably, does not always happen.

Then it was off to counseling with the textbooks and the form, and then I checked out of the visitor log at the front desk and left. I _did get it all done in a single trip_, which was my primary goal in this whole fucking outing. I had not been back to the school since that meeting in the vice principal’s office and intended to minimize my time there because I just do not have the self-control to not say what I’m thinking when I’m there, and that’s basically What the Heck is Wrong Here I Do Not Remember You All Being This Incompetent Before.

I’ve got so many questions about why.
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2024-04-04 06:54 pm

Thursday: Mindprints, Loaf

Horrible, gooey precipitation fell out of the sky. Not enough to close schools, however, school dismissed early due to a power outage. We brought A. to Fusion for assessment testing. She did Mindprints today. She had some issues with the Penn Conditional Exclusion test, and it took me a while to figure out what was going on there. Turns out if you ignore the feedback on that test, It Matters. She also had issues with the N-Back test, but in that case, it was purely a matter of processing speed (for her, that is).

R. made Loaf the other night. This is the food product previously known as Meatloaf, and it does involve meat, but the volume of vegetation is so huge it seems wrong to call it Meatloaf, so we just call it Loaf. I had a Loaf sandwich for lunch. For dinner, I made a pizza, and because I ate the last of the pepperoni the other night, I put some broken up bits of Loaf on it, along with the last of the pre-cooked mushrooms, some cashew cheese, chopped dates, tomato paste, herbs, etc.

It was Yum.

My pizza crust at this point is just bacon grease on a pan, and then sourdough straight out of the crock spread out using a spoon, a spatula, my fingers, whatever, and then some oil on top to help shape it. It is completely weird how well this turns out. Looks a mess going on but looks great coming out and tastes awesome.

ETA:

I realized that it’s been 3 weeks since I pulled A. out. And currently, it looks like she’ll have her first day in class at the 4 week mark. Not bad, given that when I took that first day off, I had no plan at all. And it’s not like there was school each of those days (Good Friday, for example, but also two late start days, and today was a surprise early release, and next week there’s another holiday day). Further, she’ll be attending school during the week that ABRSD takes off in April, and we’re working on her summer school plan. This will net out no loss and possibly slight advancement, at least that’s what it is looking like currently. Not that I care!
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2024-04-02 03:26 pm

School!

And then I had to clean the pot from the chicken soup he’d made with the wing bit bones and skin. He’d put it to soak because he got the soup way too hot and so stuff stuck to the sides of the pot. It soaked over night and, obviously, _still_ needed 10 minutes of scrubbing.

*sigh*

MEPFP meeting. I finally found out what the heck was going on with that garage exhaust fan. It really is the gift that keeps on giving. Basically, it was there to _remove hydrogen_. What hydrogen, you might ask? Well, if you were recharging lead-acid batteries in the mechanical room, it might generate hydrogen. Were we going to ever do that? NO! Fuck. Anyway. The exhaust fan was one of the items simultaneously on the HVAC guy’s list of “we don’t need” and on the “must back up” list, which is a sign something’s wrong, for sure. What really did in the exhaust fan was the problem it caused with boxing out a space for it outside (garage backs up into the hillside). That really forced conversation about why that was there anyway, and once everyone realized what had caused it to be in the plans in the first place, it went away. I heard about it in MEPFP when the person who caused this cascade of utter bullshit mentioned that if any of these removals had to be undone or further redone, that would take more time. I don’t even know what to say.

We had the president of the solar provider in the meeting today. That was kinda fun. He apparently used to do logistics before he started this company (it’s been a while, tho). As near as I can tell, he is treating the power generation puzzle as a fun toy, which, amen, fingers crossed, let’s hope this works. But I’m not totally optimistic, because there is still some free floating confusion around the requirements and I am unsure how to fix that. When we were still trying to make Enphase work, the electrician proposed two max systems in parallel, which was going to still not be great and we eventually got consensus on Enphase isn’t enough, but somehow the two parallel 200 amp systems are floating around like an evil ghost. I sent an email with something I HOPE will clarify what I want, but the problem is that I don’t know what’s possible or how to implement it and neither does anyone else in our merry crew and a couple key people are on vacation. I guess we’ll revisit this next week.

In good news, however, the _other_ zoom of the day was with Fusion, and I have now signed the registration document woot! So A. can set up her school email account, and we’ve got placement testing scheduled later this week and a start date next week. I am _soooooo_ excited! So is A.!
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2024-03-15 06:13 pm

Friday: Mental Health Day

We did not have to get up this morning, well, at least not at the usual time, because we took a Mental Health Day. This was a Really Good Decision.

I had a delightful phone conversation with K., who reminded me that D.’s kids went to Brightmont. This is foreshadowing.

I called Acton Medical and asked for a referral for A. She used to have a neurologist, but we haven’t taken her to that doctor for over 3 years and that doctor / location requires at least every 3 years to be an active patient and they are not taking new ones. I was warned about this a while back and confirmed it on their website. A.’s doctor is not working today, so I’m not sure when we will hear back and whether A. will need to go in to see the doctor to access a referral.

I did _not_ call the lawyers yet, because I still don’t know what I want the school system to do, other than not be a part of my life anymore. Well, that’s not quite right. T. is still doing great there.

I spent a lot of time talking A. through the plan I have (phone it in until she turns 16, withdraw her and have her sit for the GED or HiSET until she passes and then just live her best life). She’s just not sure if she will regret that or not. My comment was basically, you don’t have to quit — you have that option at any time.

R. does not like this plan either. He’s concerned about her becoming completely housebound. I’m like, but think of the travel options this would open up! He agrees that is appealing, but would also like an alternative school option. We talked about Colebrook, but I pointed out that they do inclusion classes at ABRHS, so that’s not likely to help much, and I would expect massive resistance to putting her in Colebrook anyway. I asked if he had any other ideas, and he did not.

OK, foreshadowing countdown complete!

Is there a Brightmont in Massachusetts?

No.

Is there _any_ 1:1 private school in Massachusetts?

Yes. In Burlington, Newton and Hingham, there is Fusion Academy. I sent a text to B., whose son went to a 1:1, and I asked which one. And it was Fusion. The young man still has friends from his time at Fusion (in Seattle) and is attending Western (because everyone goes to Western).

I tried calling, but there was a wait, and I left a voice mail. I’ll try again on Monday, probably. But between the website, B. and asking questions of those two sources of information and being _extremely_ happy about the answers, we are — it’s risky to even say it out loud — feeling hope and happiness.

I should do Mental Health Day a lot more often.

ETA: Oh, and the vice principal has completely walked back the word “punch”. He’s now asking for me to fill out the HIPAA thing or whatever so that A.’s therapist can “work together” with the school. I only _got_ the therapist, because I was under a lot of pressure to get A. a therapist, and I figured the best strategy would be to get someone who was Entirely Team A., and then _not_ sign the form for as long as possible (is this malicious compliance? Yes, yes it is). R., A. and I discussed whether or not to sign the form, and we will be discussing with the therapist (R. will also be attending) next Wednesday the form, and our feelings about it. Based on _that_ conversation, we will decide whether or not we sign the form.

It barely seems relevant at this point, because I also sent email to the resource room teacher — who we’ve known for years, because our son used to have her a long time ago in CASE — attempting to get her to tell me if she knows anything about Burlington’s Fusion Academy, ideally in the form of someone else who would be willing to talk to me on the phone. I’m not totally convinced this won’t get shared with a lot of people, and I’m absolutely not convinced I will get any response at all, but it seemed worth the sharing risk to at least ask the question.

ETA:

We had a long FF today, and it was highly enjoyable. It’s really nice that I can continue to be my worst self and my friends are still really understanding and kind. They are amazing. I want everyone to have friends who are as kind to them as mine are to me. (I don’t think anyone could be more kind, but if that’s possible, I wish you that as well!)

Lehigh Valley Workshop did a 7 pm drop but there was still a dumpster fire sign with Everything Is Fucked and We’re All Gonna Die on it, so I bought one, because, how perfect is that it was just sitting there waiting for me at midnight.
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2024-03-14 08:27 pm
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Thursday: the apocalypse would be desirable at this point

Probably I am exaggerating.

So, Tuesday, I got up for the MEPFP meeting. Wednesday, I got up for the dentist. Thursday (today), I got up for an 8 am meeting with the vice principal at ABRHS regarding something that happened Wednesday afternoon in the current events club. I obviously was not at the current events club. I got A.’s description. I got a teacher’s description (very vague). I got a phone call from the vice principal on the way to the therapist. I talked to A. about it before the therapist. I talked to it with A. at the therapist. We all trooped in to talk to the vice principal about it this morning.

I then tried to listen to the If Books Could Kill about _Lean In_, and concluded that I truly do hate everyone and I just want nuclear winter already because honestly, that’s what we deserve collectively. If we are in a world in which young, Democrat voting folks think that supporting a group of terrorists that want to segregate everyone by gender over the age of 9 AND attack Sheryl Sandberg for being a capitalist AND then be appalled at an SPLC survey that suggests that men are unhappy about feminism and/or think that men should be valued “more” whatever that might mean, well, I’m out. I’m done. We deserve what happens to us, no matter how horrible.

And then I got the summary from the vice principal about the meeting. And that email included the word “punch” (that had not previously entered the conversation at any point) and the phrase “handbook violation”.

OK. Look, I know I wanted my kid in school because that’s where the kids are, but I can admit when I am wrong. And I am obviously being wrong about a lot of things right now. I talked to A., and she doesn’t know what she wants (fair). I sent an email to the therapist asking for support on the keep A. home on Friday as a mental health day (okay to say no, but boy, a letter in support would be awesome). I replied to the vice principal saying A. won’t be in the club any more, and will be staying home Friday, and please let me know if there is a plan to suspend her on Monday so we don’t send her in to school pointlessly. I also asked for details on the “punch” thing, since that was a whole new thing and I don’t want to talk about anything until they completely spill all of what they have on that. Whatever “that” is. I mean, it’s fictional, but details matter.

We did some research, because I realized I didn’t really know what the options at this point are (obviously, homeschooling is always an option). Turns out MGL says school until 16, and honestly, that’s not that far into the future. So one option is to attend until 16, bail, send a letter of withdrawal and then sit for the GED or HISET. At that point, we can take a couple years (or not) and she can attend college (or not). Obviously, I find this personally deeply appealing because of the travel opportunities that open up.

In the meantime, I remember seeing something go by about a program to deal with chronic absenteeism. We work really hard to make sure the kids go to school and are in school all day pretty consistently, but I’m thinking I’ll just revisit that decision at an absolute minimum. Since the December debacle with the history teacher, we got a notification _at the appropriate time_ about missing assignments in history, and A. and I got her caught up and have been keeping her caught up. But I’m now thinking maybe that was a poor choice.

I’m thinking an absolute nose dive in attendance and homework completion is the correct call at this point. In conjunction with that certificate she got about her amazing MCAS scores, it’ll make our point for us when we pull her next September.

I’m really, really, really sorry I worked so hard to keep my kids in school. That’s easily the stupidest, most damaging, worst decision of my entire post-JW life.

If you are agonizing over your kids’ education, or are homeschooling and wondering if that’s the right choice, or whatever you are thinking about your choices: whatever you did, I fully support that you made the best decision you could at the time. And if you regret it, I absolutely sympathize with you. And also, I am pretty sure that in the grander scheme of things, it is way less important than it feels, and the quicker we get that idea into us, the better we’ll all feel.
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2024-03-13 07:10 pm

Wednesday: dentist, phone, walk, incident, therapy

I went to the dentist. It was uneventful. It was a lovely day for a drive, and I took a slightly longer route and listened to Racing Birds’ EP.

I had a 2 hour phone convo with J.

I had a walk and visit with M.

A. had an incident in current events club. They were apparently talking about the bill in the House to force ByteDance to divest OR for TikTok to be removed from app stores if that divestiture does not happen within 180 days of the bill passing (“the TikTok ban”). There were a bunch of people saying that TikTok and endless scrolling short form video in general “rots your brain”. A. had a pretty significant reaction and didn’t get out of there quick enough and someone called her a crybaby. Once out of there, she expressed not feeling like she was safe for other people to be around.

So, that was a lot.

I picked her up, and got part of the story from the teacher leading the club (she’s great, I have no issues with her). Then I talked to A., and we looked into the history of people saying something “rots your brain”, and how in general, it’s a bit of a conversational red flag. Use that phrase and you are telling on yourself. I pointed out to her that there is nothing shameful in crying, it isn’t weakness but strength and showed her the science on the impact of tears on male aggression on mammalian species.

We headed to therapy, and got a call from the vice principal. I was clear about the limited time and that we were headed to therapy and would be discussing this there. We explored the topic in some detail, and settled on the importance of getting out when she starts to feel hot, and things to do to help re-regulate. We showed the therapist the way-up-high, down-low, out-to-the-side, in front, ball, etc. routine. As expected she completely grasped the idea (she did it with us) and I explained the rationale for why it is the abbreviated thing instead of any of the older, more complex posture sequences that accomplish similar goals. As a result, I plan to show it to the school psychologist and the learning center teacher (same person who runs the club), so that they can share it with the team and prompt A. to do it when it seems helpful.

The vice principal sent email reiterating that there’s a meeting first thing tomorrow in his office. A. is dreading it, so I guess I have to go, but I’m annoyed that at no point in this whole thing did anyone involve R., so we will both be going, we will at least match their numbers, and I will reiterate the importance of involving both parents.

ETA:

I finished the sample of Charlie Jane Anders _Victories Greater Than Death_. It’s extremely readable and fairly involving. Not sure if I’ll commit to reading the series (or even the rest of the book, altho I think if I read the rest of the book I’ll probably be committing to all three).
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2024-03-05 02:42 pm

Breadcrumbs placeholder: standardized testing word lists, military recruitment, teaching reading

I’ll be back later, but I just realized that I’ve had a ton of interactions with people over the last couple of days on this topic and I haven’t left any evidence of it here for me to revisit later.

So: as a little reminder for me. Mulct.

Ok! Let’s see what we can do here.

A friend sent me a reddit post by a teacher in NJ and the comments thread associated with it. https://www.reddit.com/r/Teachers/comments/1av4y2y/comment/krcjeve/

The poster has a significant cluster of posts, all recent, all very much the same, and the account is comparatively new. The mention of Charlotte’s Web and Bridge to Terabithia was striking to me. I am Old, but when I was a youngster in school Charlotte’s Web was old. Bridge to Terabithia is about as old as the Original Star Wars. Which is Old. I made some remarks to my friend along these lines, and advocating for picking books for the kiddos to read that are Not So Old — more like the kind of Old Charlotte’s Web and Bridge to Terabithia were when we were kids, vs. 40-50 years further down the path. I specifically name checked Jason Reynolds’ Long Way Down and Jacqueline Woodson’s Brown Girl Dreaming, which would bear roughly (very roughly) the same relationship in time to Kids These Days as Charlotte’s Web and Bridge to Terabithia would have to us.

In the ensuing discussion, my friend asked, “ But how exactly does not getting the cultural references keep kids from learning how to read? As opposed to enjoying or understanding a given book?“

I don’t know that I gave a great answer to that question, because it’s one of those questions that strikes so completely to the heart of the matter. I mean, how can you read, if you don’t understand? You _can_ read what you don’t enjoy — it’s hard, and it’s marginally easier if you at least have some emotional energy. Like, it’s easier to hate read than it is to words-on-a-page-read. I didn’t really fully grasp that until the whole thing happened with Reflections on the Revolution in France (recap: the only book that reliably put me to sleep until one night it didn’t and I’ve been mad at Edmund Burke — like, _hot_ mad, heart rate speeds up, voice gets loud, shaky finger, red in the face want to hurt people who argue with me about it mad — ever since. When it was boring, it was unreadable; when I was mad at it, it went fast.).

But if you don’t understand what is being referred to, you can decode, you can read aloud, but you won’t understand it, even if you memorize it and can recall and repeat phrases in response to triggers. I’m not sure what the point of education is if you are having kids read what they don’t understand and then not devoting adequate instructional time to explain all of it to them in a way that they _can_ understand. It _seems_ like it would be easier to just pick a book that is material they _can understand_.

[Kid homework interruptions have peaked; I’ll be back.

They’re making the kids pick between Sherman Alexie part time indian, Coelho’s alchemist, and John Knowles A Separate Peace. *sigh*]

After trying (and probably failing) to explain the importance of relatability / comprehensibility to readers who are still learning to read and advancing in their development as readers (as opposed to most of us adults who are coasting), I then pointed to a reddit thread about using audiobooks to help kids with reading. I had noticed that at least at some points, the school provided access to audiobooks for the kids through Sora (sp?), and it really seemed to help my daughter a lot. I know plenty of adults — many through my book group — who primarily engage with books through audiobooks for a variety of reasons, and they get different things from the experience than many who read the words on the page and do not listen to it out loud. The sound qualities of written language are important.

https://www.reddit.com/r/teaching/comments/140e8x/english_teachers_what_do_you_think_about_students/

“In my honors class, I realized that some of my students had been looking for audiobook version of their books. I do not read to them because I expect them to read outside of class so we can discuss during class. I never really minded but I'm starting to think whether it's a good idea. I mean, eventually, they should read on their own because they won't have read aloud in tests/real life, etc. However, since they're reading outside of class...I can't really enforce the no audiobooks rule...”

This is clearly a good english teacher, meeting the students where they are. But despite that, this is an english teacher lacking an organized way of thinking about the sonic qualities of written language, and instead defaulting to some super fucked up Must Consume Without Subvocalizing perspective on written language.

I mean, just fucking think about _that_ for a minute.

There’s a comment in the thread:

“I started my school year with Huck Finn, which my juniors found impossible at first. Eventually one confessed that she was listening to audiobooks on YouTube to pass quizzes. At first I was upset then I realized that the the essentials of the lessons were still there. I do discussion questions that require them to cite quotations from the text so they still have to read the actual novel in class or at home.” (And a reply to this comment that made me go, and this is why you shouldn’t be assigning Huck Finn any more, but never mind that now.)

Huck Finn is _really_ astonishing to want to suppress listening to, given that the typical way to consume Huck Finn when it first came out would have been in a family read aloud circle. You know, the way all 19th century novels were meant to be consumed.

All right. Next.

Back to that original reddit. Comments about military recruitment and the ASVAB / PiCAT. I went looking to find out what was currently on the ASVAB, since I haven’t engaged with that test since I took it in the mid-1980s. There is a word knowledge component. There are quizlets to help people study for the word knowledge component. And there are just crazy words in there — veracious (not voracious, veracious), limpid, dulcet, inamorata, mulct.

Yes, mulct.

I’m a descriptivist, not a prescriptivist. Mulct is in the dictionary with a primary definition (fine or tax or some weird hybrid of the two if you are in Iowa) and a secondary definition (swindle or defraud). However, outside of Chapter 99 of Iowa’s legal code, and a few weirdo jurists in Ohio and similar, nobody uses this word. I have _one_ friend who knew the word, and she _only_ knew the “secondary” definition. The “secondary” definition is not in my copy of the 2 vol plus supplement of the OED (yes, both definitions are in the current OED). To me, this says this isn’t a word anyone is using, and google ngrams agrees. Is fleshment a word? No, no it is not. Same reasons. It’s in Shakespeare, but no one is using it any more, and no one really has for over a hundred years.

So, why would you put mulct on a word knowledge test for military recruits? I get that part of what you are sorting for in the military is someone who will put up with your arbitrary bullshit, but shouldn’t it be _the arbitrary bullshit you want them to put up with_? Isn’t this a waste of everyone’s time and energy? In the meantime, the economy is booming, and a lot of the people who have the choice of memorizing a word list that includes dulcet, limpid and inamorata or getting a job at Amazon are going to choose door number two.

I used to just be mad about still teaching cursive (and when I was a kid, not letting me type my homework), and not letting kids use calculators. This round of listening to a friend worrying about whether Kids These Days are Learning Enough, combined with the teachers pissing and moaning about how everyone is on their phone all the time, and the military recruiters saying nobody knows any words any more is just making me feel total despair. Not at the kids. The kids are fine.

But the current crop of adults — you know, my peers, plus or minus — I’m kinda worried about us. We are terrible.

In the end tho, the correct target is standardized curricula and testing. If you standardize, it’s a fucking PITA to do updates. So you don’t. Because it’s easier not to. And the next thing you know, you’ve got tenth graders that can’t make any sense out of Charlotte’s Web, and their teachers who haven’t stopped to ask themselves the most basic questions like,

Why is the Arable family setting the table for breakfast?
How does the Arable family have time to start to kill a runty pig, decide not to, find a bottle and a nipple and feed the pig, in the half hour between breakfast and the arrival of the school bus? How is there a _half hour_ between breakfast and the school bus_?
Why are there so many weapons before breakfast (ax, air rifle, wooden dagger, at a minimum, in the first three pages)?
How come I never noticed the pun in the family’s last name?

I’ve been asking around, and remember, I’m Old. No one I know knows anyone who ever set any table ever for breakfast, even on those rare occasions when more than one person was eating the same breakfast at the same time. Whatever is going on in this book might as well be happening on Mars, with a bunch of visitors from Venus, because it’s completely unrelatable.

TL;DR If a teacher posting on reddit won’t shut up about how her husband is homeschooling their kid, and whining about how awful their school district is, they are probably Doing It Wrong, whatever Doing, It and Wrong might mean.

Also, read whatever you want, and don’t make other people read stuff they don’t want to. Life is short, and learning is too important to waste valuable curiosity and cognitive energy on useless garbage.

ETA: For reference purposes, that chat I was having with a friend about the standardized tests and so forth? That was a _chat between two national merit scholars_. Not fucking honorable mentions. _Scholars_. It’s not like we’re bad at the standardized test taking.

ETAYA: The friend who knew a definition of mulct reads 19th century novels by preference — that’s actually how we originally got to know each other, was reviews of obscure 19th century novelists and their work. I was not especially surprised that she knew the word.
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2024-02-05 11:45 am
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Duolingo Math and Music

Duolingo has been doing language learning for a while now, but more recently has added Math and Music.

I tried both Math and Music fairly quickly after they were released. I found doing the Music lessons on an iPad to be frustrating and unfamiliar, so I abandoned it very quickly. I was disappointed by the Math lessons because they only covered some fairly simple topics in math. However, it is frequently the case that I start a new language and continue it in fits and starts because I’m attempting to meet some daily goals and it’s easier (for complicated reasons that are obvious to regular users of Duo and difficult to explain to people who have never used it) to meet some of those daily goals earlier on in the path of a given language than later. I also will start a new language / topic on occasion if I’m trying to rack up a lot of points for some reason, like, it’s Sunday and I’m still in the demotion zone, altho that happens a lot less often now (they appear to have changed how earning 2X points works again, so I’m spending far more time in 2X point collection time than I was for a while).

Because the Math topic is relatively short (currently — I expect that will change, altho I don’t know anything, this is purely a guess), I worked my way through the entire thing (no, I have not 3 starred every single starred level). Maybe 2/3rds of the way through, I started to really appreciate what they were doing with Math. I noticed that lessons were structured to build connections between percentages, fractions, decimals and various graphical representations. That is, they are trying to help develop a sense of quantity, independent of representation. This is really great! It’s a thing that a lot of people struggle with, even long after they’ve learned a bunch of calculus, and it’s useful in everyday life, where often people mix-and-match either on purpose or Just Because. And it’s really useful to have that innate sense of quantity independent of representation, because people fuck up all the time and you can catch that by feel if you get good at it. I think Duo probably effectively helps develop that, so good for Duolingo!

Having completed the Math topic, I thought I would revisit the Music topic and see if perhaps I was being a bit unfair to it. I often do Duolingo and other things in my chair in the living room or at the counter in the kitchen or at the dining room table, and I do that because it is interruptible, low-stakes and I can be available if my kids want to chat, or I can monitor something that is cooking. To give Math a truly fair chance, I made sure I used it when there wasn’t anyone around interrupting me, and I wouldn’t be annoying anyone while using it (I could also have just used headphones/earbuds). For whatever reason, it is much more fun now. The Music topic appropriately emphasizes rhythm (which can get lost in trying to learn the right notes) and like the Math topic, it, too, uses multiple representations for the tones. It uses color, letters, the familiar staff. It mixes and matches what it offers and what representation it wants back. It introduces new tones very, very slowly. I can imagine that someone who has been singing or playing by ear for a while (that would be me) would find it pretty painfully basic, however, just like the Math topic, if you persist, you will close gaps in your understanding quite rapidly.

I know the Duolingo approach to learning is not for everyone at all times. In particular, my many friends who also use this gameified learning system frequently talk about wanting better explanations of grammar. Every time I _do_ go look at any kind of grammar explanation, I wind up finally figuring out something I kept struggling with in Duo — but I really, really, really avoid doing that, because I don’t want to know the “rule”. I want to be able to produce it without consciously thinking about it. I want that other part of my brain to do the heavy lifting. If you’ve struggled with math or reading music, and felt mortified but also still wish you could do better, maybe don’t tell anyone but try Duo and see if that works for you. We all know we suck at languages other than the one we grew up with, so the sharing components of Duo are easier there. But honestly, Duo gives you the chance to be absolutely stupid without anyone else being involved in the process. With Math and Music, that might be quite a gift.

ETA:

Also, dadchats over on TikTok recently fell into some Reddit lifehacks rabbit hole and shared the results. The one that stuck with me was the interchangeability of percentages (50% of 10 being the same as 10% of 50, type of thing). I’d never noticed. R. had never noticed. Obviously, dadchats had never noticed. A. immediately said, of course that works, it’s multiplication. She’s right, and also, when she said that, I was immediately reassured. A lot of people think that Kids These Days [insert something insulting here]. I’ve been convinced that a lot of what and how they teach in school is far better than when I was in school, but there was all that nonsense about pandemic, math education, etc. But if she took one look at this thing and said, duh, here’s why, while her STEM educated ‘rents were gobsmacked, there’s more than hope for our future. Things truly are improving.
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2024-01-03 11:00 pm

A long day

Both kids had therapy. T.’s went long, so he skipped his virtual piano lesson. R. and I went out to dinner after A.’s therapy. And then there was homework.

But it went really well! A. stuck around for current events club, which is only extremely marginally about current events and is mostly her getting more time with her buddies in connections, or, as she calls it, she’s there for the connections chaos. One of the kids was trying to figure out a way to boot linux on his school provided chromebook. He did not succeed, but along the way, A. learned a bunch of things.

A. and I talked about her upcoming essay in English on _Patron Saints of Nothing_. She really disliked the book for a whole lot of reasons, some of which sound to me like there are real problems and others which sound like the author did a good job but A. is not really the target audience. I told her that her essay could be on how much she hated the book and why, and that helped her really connect with the assignment instead of just resenting it. I have also been trying to really understand what the goal of essay writing, in school or wherever else it might subsequently be used for, might be. I mean, _obviously I am aware of what I am doing here_! Duh. Equally, I am quite certain this wasn’t anyone’s idea of why I was being taught to write essays in school. It has not escaped me that chatGPT answers look suspiciously like an automated 3-5 paragraph essay more often than not. And there was a recent The New Warehouse episode (https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-new-warehouse-podcast/id1455808373) in which LoPresti from Takt describes a recent AI component of Takt intended to support managers in their communications with workers and also in writing performance reviews that was a delightful example of automating the assembly of relevant data points into a draft for a human to check and then either submit or use as the basis for an in person discussion of some sort.

As with everything, once it is automated, I’m gonna ask a bunch of questions about, so why teach people to do it manually anyway? Also, AI production of writing forcibly reminds us over and over and over again that the format is largely unimportant but the selection of the list items included in the format is crucial. The essay tends to conceal that early work in finding and curating the list items, and of course by so concealing introduces many opportunities for shenanigans. I exploited the fuck out of that as a teenager by writing essays which meticulously hit every specified requirement but were absolutely never imagined as in any way when the teacher was assigning that essay (highly recommend, btw, especially if you have confidence that you can appeal all bad grades successfully — I don’t mean grade grubbing. I mean, you produce an A+ essay that is bonkers but precisely compliant in every way. Occasionally, you will get a humor-free teacher who D or F’s you, and you have to be able to get that fixed if you want to have the GPA necessary to get the scholarships you need because you’re poor and you need help going to college. And you _really_ have to be meticulous about noting every single requirement specified in the class and for the assignment in question, because some people _will_ use any opportunity to ding you when you abuse their assignment this way).

The answers to my questions have been fairly poor, much like answers to questions about cursive or long division or spelling or grammar or really anything else that it’s inexpensive to access fully automated versions of. I have concluded that the value of an essay does not lie in the essay product; it lies entirely in the selection process leading up to the product. And that’s particularly terrible as a conclusion, because virtually all of the pedagogy is focused on the product and streamlining the process of searching for and curating what goes into that product.

Anyway. I don’t know that there’s any useful lesson here. I would _observe_ that the somewhat horrifying events associated with efforts to teach “small group academic discussion” align very well with my observations around essays. I feel like both of these demonstrate the inevitable gear smashing associated with transitioning from “rigorous”, “product oriented” education to SEL. We really need to end up in a world in which we can share our feelings and collectively problem solve, but we are still educating to a world in which feelings are denied and we are required to comply with policy set from above. We’ve been moving along this path for generations, and we’ll keep making progress, but it sure feels slow.
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2023-09-20 08:36 am
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9th Grade English Curricula

My daughter’s English class has been reading short fiction/non-fiction about kids their age. They read “Eraser Tattoo” by Jason Reynolds. We read _Long Way Down_ by Jason Reynolds in book group a while back, and that book was amazing. It was emotionally powerful, sensitive and beautiful, and also very sad. Apparently, Reynolds has also written some Miles Morales novels that look really great. “Eraser Tattoo” is a poignant story of Shay and Dante, who have grown up together, but now Shay’s family is moving because the brownstone she grew up in has been sold to a white couple and now Shay’s family is moving to Wilmington, NC. In the short story, they are being edged more and more to the side of the stoop until they have to get off it completely (synecdoche!), as they talk over the years they have known each other, what they plan for the future individually and their tentative thoughts about the future of Maybe-Us, and Shay gives Dante an “Eraser Tatttoo” (scarification). Love that story.

Amy Tan’s “Fish Cheeks” perfectly depicts the absolutely intense mortification that one can feel more at 14 than maybe any other age ever. Her family has the minister’s family over for a holiday dinner, and mom is making all of her favorite dishes: whole steamed fish, squid, prawns. But she is now seeing the holiday dinner and her favorite dishes through the eyes of white Americans — the minister’s son who she has a crush on in particular — and the difference in simple but important things like how a group of people shares food (reaching vs. passing platters) and expresses delight in a good meal. It’s a beautifully told, extremely brief tale.

Unfortunately, for all that “Eraser Tattoo” and “Fish Cheeks” are wonderful stories, “The Bass, the River and Sheila Mant” by Walter David Wetherell is kinda gross. Another 14 year old, another crush, this one at the summer place on the Connecticut River in or near Hanover. I’m not sure if the one town mentioned — Dixford — is real but I think probably not. The 14 year old invites the crushee, a 17 year old, to go to a fair / listen to some music in Dixford, and offers to bring her there in his aluminum canoe, which he normally fishes in. Surprisingly, she accepts and shows up dressed up really nice, and while the 14YO surreptitiously fishes in paragraphs full of masturbation related double entendre, Sheila talks about how she thinks fishing is boring, says she’s thinking of having her hair done to be more like Ann-Margret, her uncertainty about tanning given that Jackie Kennedy seems not to tan at all, her possible college choices, which include Bennington and UVM, and her interest in Eric Caswell, who strokes 4 for Dartmouth. The narrator has already noted that Sheila looks at the Dartmouth crew (20 YOs) in much the way that he looks at her. The narrator eventually cuts the fish loose and is nauseated at having done so, loses track of Sheila at the show, and she comes to tell him she’ll be leaving the fair with Eric, who drives a Corvette, and that the narrator is kinda strange. The last paragraph, without explanation, refers to her as “Poor Sheila!”, leaving the reader to wonder _why_ is Sheila pitiable? She just left the fair with a 20 YO who thinks she has a figure for modeling, in his ‘61 (ish) Corvette, ditching the 14YO she left her family’s place with. They didn’t think she’d be getting into any trouble with the 14YO, he’s just a kid, amirite? So why is the middle-aged author of this thing getting such a nasty chuckle out of how he’s never made a similar mistake again, picking the Sheila over the fish? And why “Poor Sheila!”? I feel like there are three explanations, none of them great and one of them really, really bad. The least toxic is that Sheila was grounded for the rest of the summer after her safe return home in Eric’s ‘61 Corvette. The next up is that the author legit thinks that Sheila missed out on her opportunity to date someone who would grow to be heavily anthologized and a part of 9th grade English curricula around the country. Call that, Team Narcissist. But the third is that Everyone Knew later one that Something Happened to Sheila that night at the fair, and thus, “Poor Sheila!” Which is gross. I think the text points pretty unambiguously towards this interpretation. Meanwhile, I can’t find anyone who else who unprompted noticed the “Poor Sheila!” And a reader I trust quite a lot is Team Narcissist. Whatever. Just on the basis of all the masturbation double-entendres, this is a yucky story.

But you know. At least the kids got to read Fish Cheeks and Eraser Tattoo.

I am sort of curious tho, about just how autobiographical Wetherell’s story is. I re-upped over at e-yearbooks to get a look at the crew team in the relevant years. That got me last names which I’m trying to connect to full names elsewhere in the book and failing. And I don’t really know what to make of that, because I don’t really understand genre conventions of college yearbooks in the early 1960s. Also, wow, Dartmouth really dragged their feet on going co-ed.

I _had_ thought reading the story that it really oozed Oh Look at How wtf We Are, with named fishing gear that at the time would have been high-quality gear (still is good value for money gear), and Sheila talking about skiing which would have been a niche, not particularly cheap hobby back then. That Sheila has no concerns about whether she can get into college, and a good, elite college, speaks to her social status as well. But Wetherell’s publicly available information says he was born in Mineola and went to Hofstra, so it is tough to see the narrator as running in quite the same circles (for that matter, while I _can_ find him in his high school year book ‘66, and I can find The Mast for the obvious year — ‘70 — and surrounding years, I cannot find him in it, so I don’t really know what to think _because I don’t know genre conventions for college yearbooks_. Altho I’m getting really good at navigating them online.). The narrator's mother turns her nose up at the loudness of Sheila's family, which initially struck me as possible Not Our Kind Dear, I'm now thinking the narrator's longing for the glamour of Sheila's family as more telling. I'm not sure if we're told what the narrator's hair color is, but he's a red-head, like Sheila is described, if this thing is truly autobiographical.

I will say this, tho. Hofstra looks like a pretty good school.

This is interesting: https://www.hofstra.edu/pdf/community/bdc/css/css_conf_0301b.pdf

There was a dramatic reading from one of Wetherell’s books at Hofstra for an academic conference about suburbia (it’s the levittown book, obviously). The person who _did_ the reading his named and his degrees are described, one of which is from Hofstra. But Wetherell is not named as ever having attended Hofstra, much less graduated, and while Wetherell’s older online information says he went to Hofstra and/or has a degree from there, the more recent entries do not. Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence, but in this case, questions arise.
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2023-09-15 08:21 am

A Few Remarks About Adding Supply Vs. Subsidizing

Let’s say you have market in a thing that everyone needs: housing. Let’s say you have people who are not able to acquire what they need in that market. Should you provide MORE housing, change the rules so that “invisible hand” “someone” provides MORE housing, or subsidize some customers in the market so they can afford to acquire what they need in that market?

If you answered that question with anything other than, I Need More Information Of This Sort to answer this question, I _think_ you are probably wrong.

The specific information I _think_ you need to answer the question is: how many customers are in the market, how much housing is available, what specifically are the customers able to pay and what will they regard as “better than no housing at all” (viz couch surfing, sleeping in a car, on the street, in a shelter, at the emergency department, etc.), what specifically do the sellers in the market regard as “better than leaving the housing unsold”.

The stupid first question that must be answered is raw units housing / raw total units desired, but unfortunately, even this is tricky because “better than no housing at all” calculation includes a bunch of elasticity around household size (that is, sometimes, a customer would rather sleep on the street than on his sister’s couch, but not if it is freezing outside; sometimes, a customer would rather spend less and share a unit but not during a pandemic, etc.). There is also the phenomenon of imperfectly connected markets (how far are you willing to commute / can you get a job in another place and move). But if you persistently have demand in a particular defined geography that exceeds numerically total units available, that’s clear cut — you need more unit.

BUT! What if you take effective action to build lots more units but you wind up making it so no one wants to live there anymore. This Is Not Theoretical.

There are also problems of people flowing from one place to another (in very large numbers!) that can destabilize a functional market (in either direction).

Most of our housing problem in the United States is directly attributable to underbuilding after the Great Recession. Some of our housing problem in the United States is further attributable to our failure to build out broadband everywhere — we probably could have avoided some of the mad rush to the coastal cities and then the subsequent exodus which took the asset inflation that occurred in coastal cities and then randomly distributed it around the country as people sold out of coastal cities and rebought Everywhere Else and bid up the prices on the housing in those places.

But I also think that a lot of the problem is our persistent resistance to thinking of the United States, or at least 48 states as being a unified housing market, and the importance of “what housing is better than no housing” / “what minimum rent is better than no rent”. People will sacrifice a lot of housing, if it means they can have a job. Property owners will refuse a lot of tenants when they believe there will be another, much more remunerative tenant along soon and/or if the cost/benefit tradeoff of a tenant is poor (the expected move in/move out/maintenance and general costs of having someone in a housing unit is non-zero, and sometimes the “expected rent” is too low compared to those general costs. Property owners who have struggled to collect rent learn this quick and unlearn it very slowly.).

I really do love democracy, but it is really frustrating looking at housing market failures and how various groups of voters with entirely understandable concerns and desires layer on limits on housing supply and then are surprised by the predictable consequences. I’m thinking about all this because my daughter expressed that what she was learning in school seemed really pointless so I started explaining to her — in response to specific classes and material — what that class and/or material was intended to teach and enable her to do in life. She got it very quickly, but then was like, well, how come no one ever told me (a classic question of childhood and, honestly, adulthood). We also got into questions about What _Should_ Math Be Like (I mean, we’ve had computer programs that could do _all_ the math taught in a high school and a big chunk of a math intensive undergrad since I was in college and I graduated in 1991). I said, well, Math should be taught as a way to solve human problems. I then went on to explain how the kind of reasoning used in a lot of humanities / social sciences / etc. did not reflect the nuance that really good quantitative reasoning can involve. This particular example sprang forcefully to mind.
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2022-08-07 11:18 am
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A Few Remarks About Burying the Lede

I like to walk and talk. For a variety of reasons — heat, geography, and covid fears (not mine), mostly — I haven’t been able to walk in person with other people hardly at all lately. So I call people on the phone and they walk with me virtually while doing whatever it is they are doing. With my sister, I usually catch her winding down with an adult beverage. With R., it’s often the commute home, or dinner prep or chores around her house in the evening.

It’s all good.

I rarely have any goal in these conversations, other than to chat with someone I love while I walk. And all kinds of things come up. My sister is a nurse in home care and currently has a school case, so she’s in a school context most of her work days (not right at the moment, obviously) and the family of her case includes people who currently or in the past worked for a school district in various capacities, as well as having children of their own who are or were in the school system. Sometimes, we talk about what’s going on in schools. In the most recent version of this conversation, my sister launched on the topic of how the children who are in first or second grade have never been in in person school until recently and so don’t know how to behave / listen / comply / wtf. Her district was one which stayed remote for a long time. However, I _know_ my sister, so rather than listen to paragraph after paragraph of Kids Don’t Know How to Listen, I asked, have the kids you are talking about (not her cases) done anything to anyone that resulted in an ER visit? The response: children or adults?

To summarize: the start of the monologue is about Kids Can’t Listen. The gist is that someone had to go to the hospital. More than one someone.

The next component was: was anything done. The short answer was, “No”, which is obviously implausible. What actually happened? Parents who had spent an extended time resisting a behavior plan abruptly complied with the request to put the kid on a behavior plan. That’s not nothing.

I don’t want to give the impression that this is a My Sister Is So Nutty story. It’s really not. A lot of people really struggle with which parts should be presented in which order. My sister has a tendency to come to sweeping conclusions that have no obvious actionable element, and are often extremely vague and somewhat blame-y. They are satisfying to her — it’s obviously someone else’s fault — and undemanding of her — there’s nothing she can do about it. They are unsatisfying to me in every way. I’m largely uninterested in blame, and I am interested in fixing problems independent of whether or not they are “my” problem, and participating in politics (mostly as a donor, and a person who engages in lots of conversations with lots of people, which, as incredible as it seems, is actually a political activity. In fact, it is arguably _the_ political activity. When nerds say they hate “politics”, what they are saying is, “Don’t make me communicate with other people. I find it overwhelming.”).

My sister _leads_ with these conclusions, and I used to then ask, but how did you get to that conclusion and the story would come out in pieces and I’d be very confused and really struggle to validate what sounded like a tempest in a teapot and then boom, out would come the yeah, that’s not a teapot tempest, that’s a category 5 wtf. I’m learning tho! I just straight up ask at the beginning who had to go the hospital, and then I follow it up for what precisely happened next.

I am really worried about this next school year. Not because of covid. I have a lot of concerns about staffing issues, which are really, really bad this year, even with relaxed requirements to be a teacher. Sure, I live in a district that is super lucky and able to staff, but … I also know people around the country, and I like to imagine that I care about kids everywhere in our country getting an adequate public education. I’m not sure what, if anything, I can do about this, but I’m at least trying to understand what is going on and a little bit of why. Which means I’m over at Education Week today reading about it.

https://www.edweek.org/teaching-learning/opinion-why-i-left-teaching-spoiler-it-wasnt-the-students/2022/08

This sounds like a fairly young teacher, 4 years as a lead 2nd grade teacher. He has a twitter account that supports this idea. Losing young teachers while having staffing issues would seem to be salient. Why did he leave? Not the kids, he says. He does not supply a bulleted list, so my summary may not be accurate, but what I got was this: standardized testing / curriculum, punitive / behavioral disciplinary strategy, underresourced. Fair! These are all very, very real problems.

But I’m talking about this in a rambling post about “Burying the Lede”. So, what’s the lede?

“T was not a kid who “slipped through the cracks.” Everyone in the school knew about this 7-year-old girl. She had thrown things, cursed, called everyone names, hit kids, and screamed for hours. She was also brilliant, motivated, and curious. She had interests, friends, supports, and aspirations. T loved using her manipulatives in math, reading about princesses and the teen dancer and singer JoJo Siwa, acting, and teaching other kids.
But when it came to the curriculum, none of it got through to her. So, T rebelled, every year. My school’s positive behavioral interventions and supports system was the first response to her rebellion, but teachers lacked proper resources, and the system’s reliance on external motivation and discipline triggered her more.”

So, the _actual_ issue here is that this kid’s got a wrong placement. Straight up, this kid does not belong in this school. Since I’m not in Maryland, I have no idea _what_ alternative options are available to her. But I can tell you with not a _single_ doubt that in _my_ district, when parents resist appropriate placements, this is the kind of thing you wind up seeing. This very young, idealistic teacher who has great empathy and aspires to the best for everyone must have wound up exhausting everyone around him, while simultaneously solving absolutely no problems anywhere. We have 6 elementary schools in the now regionalized district, and they are each very, very different in how the schools work, even tho the curriculum is fully standardized. And I have gotten to know parents who feel passionately — and completely incompatibly with each other — about which schools are “good” and which ones are “oh I’m so sorry how did your kid wind up there?!?”. And that’s _outside_ of special ed — that’s just giving parents some choice for their kids about whether they have an “academically” oriented elementary school experience, a “high structure” school experience, a “discovery” approach to learning or whatever. Once you’re in the special ed system, there is simultaneously more and less choice.

Navigating this is _hard_ for parents and for teachers (kids realistically just can’t possibly), in part because there is a persistent tendency to reduce cognitive load by simplifying. We do this by binary labeling things Good and Bad. We do this by picking a strategy and trying to apply it to everyone and everything. Also, there’s not nearly enough information available to anyone about what other options are available. When kindergarten at Conant (in retrospect, every single year I am even more astonished about what a bad idea that was, and I thought it was a terrible idea at the time) did not work out for T., and he went over to CASE for several years, I returned to the district pre-school to better understand why CASE had not been offered as a kindergarten option. Turns out the answer was super simple: CASE had a terrible reputation within the preschool, partly because of out of date information, partly due to _lack_ of information.

Right now, everyone is new at their jobs. People are new to the work world. There has been a “silver tsunami” of retirements. Institutional knowledge is … gone. Which is _great_ because a lot of the people with the institutional knowledge were adamant that they were not going to waste time and energy learning new ways of doing things because they were going to retire soon. So now we are going through all kinds of transformations all at once and everyone is very stressed out about the whole thing.

In the meantime, if someone is really worked up about something and you’re thinking, _that’s_ the hill you’re gonna die on? Ask them who went to the hospital. Ask them whether anyone was unable to return to work because they were so traumatized by a physical attack or other crime committed against them, and they still haven’t figured out whether they should go file a police report or not. Because there’s a certain amount of that going around, and the people who are talking around those issues are not necessarily talking _about_ those issues in a way that a casual conversational partner is going to be able to make sense of.
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2021-05-19 01:46 pm

Should We Be Teaching Fractions?

This is a very new idea of mine, so I am still exploring it. That’s very different from earlier ideas I have had along the same lines, such as, We Really Need to Stop It With Cursive, and, No More With the Clock Faces and Hands Already. I was opposed to cursive when I was a child learning it _because I knew about typewriters_. Printing is fine for short things, but if you need speed and volume, a keyboard is so much better. Cursive, shorthand, etc. — old skool.

Clock faces I didn’t really think about super hard until I was watching reading time off a clock face being taught to friends’ kids and later mine. Then I was like, seriously, Why Are We Doing This Anyway? Also, 24 hour time, please, any day now.

When I was trying to justify to myself why kids need to learn how to calculate with fractions yesterday, I came up short. Hard.

I know the standard rationale: cooking, anything involves English or Imperial like carpentry or blueprints or whatever, you need to be able to cope with fractions. Except I’ve been learning Dutch recipes for the last several (decade plus) years, and so I’ve spent a lot of time on websites converting from metric measurements (by weight, no less!) to something I can do. And honestly, I don’t see fractions in Euro cookbooks. I asked my husband about this idea, and he said, yeah, the English measurements are really going to screw you up, but you could do it in Europe, because everything there is measured in meters.

I’m not cuckoo here — I’m not looking to legislate pi to 3, or say that there is nothing between a couple of whole numbers. I’m here for an argument about representation. Specifically, tho, I’m here in favor of decimalization. A lot of old math books structure their problems carefully to make sure that in algebra, you may have fractions along the way, but you’ll get a satisfying whole number value for X or Y if you did the problem right. But honestly, that’s not how it works in the real world. And in the real world, you’re going to decimalize.

It’s amazing what a package deal this really is. If you decimalize everything — metric, monetary system, cooking measurements by weight instead of volume and grams for units, yeah, okay, the time keeping system is still a problem, but whatever — then fractions basically go away. We don’t need them. We could spend our time teaching things that are _actually_ _useful_, and which we don’t currently have time for.

Like, using keyboards well. Like, boolean algebra and discrete math.

A little addendum — like cursive, fractions and learning how to use them well, and, honestly, all those 60s in our time keeping system, existed to make _calculation easier_ in a world that (1) did not have a zero and (2) did not have a decimal. Keeping them around is hoarding. We really need to stop. We know better. We should do better.
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2020-07-29 11:38 pm

Wednesday: cruise moved! Walks, phone call

A week ago, the Globe had a breathless article about school districts in the state doing .. something or other.

https://www.bostonglobe.com/2020/07/22/metro/dozens-massachusetts-districts-faulted-asking-parents-sign-away-special-education-rights/

R. mentioned it to me. I was like, what was the problem? Yeah, I signed versions of that waiver at least twice, maybe three times (twice for A.’s testing, which was due in the spring and obviously could not happen, and I think something for T. but I am much less certain about that one). Duh. What were they going to do? All that testing is normed and has to be delivered in a very particular way; you could do it over Zoom but what would be the point? You could not use it for its intended assessment purpose. To be fair, she has a placement that is working fine, and my biggest concern was that they were going to make her go back sooner than she / we were comfortable with; I was not trying to get something changed.

But the article is bonkers in a lot of ways. The only push to adhere to the timelines came from DeVos / Trump, so obviously that is part of the overall Reopen Everything push — not something the Globe or even those particular writers is supporting, so why would they support this leg of that stool? No one seems to have enforced the waivers, and everyone was making a good faith effort. Asking us to sympathize with someone who was concerned their kid was going to mis out on an entire semester well ... join everyone else, please.

Because my kids have had IEPs from the beginning of their schooling (preK) and one had early intervention, and because we do try to get them various inclusive activities, we have made friends with a variety of people scattered around the region and their children. The arc of development is different in every single case, and sometimes you really do have to resort to an advocate or a lawyer to get a district to deliver the education they should.

But C19 is one of those things that means you have to be willing to make some exceptions and be a bit more tolerant. I have friends whose kids are at private special ed schools (tuitioned in by their districts who are unable to provide appropriate placement either in district or through their special ed cooperative). When March happened, day students at those schools went home and did remote like all the rest of us. And the residential students (I do not know anyone whose kid is in that situation) at those schools got to deal with all the negatives of congregate living (C19 hit those facilities, I have no idea how hard, because they are rarely in the news).

I have a hard time imagining — given the kinds of substituted services (which were helpful!) that my kids received — that it really matters _that much_ whether a remote learning kid (basically everyone mentioned in this article) was at one point in their service delivery pipeline or another. You are at home, in front of a device, with whatever support your family members can provide, and whatever someone can do via zoom.

I probably should not go around saying that anyone kicking up a fuss about signing waivers on timelines is being a dick. But I did. Find something more constructive to do.

I had R. sign into PowerSchool and opt for remote for both kids. Woooot!

I walked with M.

I walked the 3 mile loop by myself.

I spent a _lot_ of time on hold with Disney Cruise Line. The first time, after 45 minutes, I gave up to have a phone call with J. It was a lovely call. As always. The second time, I got what I wanted: holiday cruise moved to the following year. Wooohoooo!!!

A box from Imperfect Foods arrived, 1 of a 2 box delivery. However, the other box appears to have never actually shipped out, so I will be contacting them.

The sitter took T. to his swim lessons and then out to dinner (patio dining at Rail Trail). No track today.

A. decided that Adventure Academy did not look as awesome as the ads suggested, so we canceled. Canceling Adventure Academy was a super easy thing, and you get to still use the rest of your trial period. Kudos to them for having a non-evil subscription product.

I signed her up for BrainPop and Flocabulary. She had been asking about RNA, so I had her do the BrainPop about RNA. She watched it twice, and I answered questions. The first time through was super confusing, but the second time through she understood it a lot better and got out a couple jackets with zippers to illustrate her own explanation of it. She also worked on her Spanish in Duolingo. She was bored; I do not have her do enrichment / schoolwork unless she is bored. We also lifted weights.
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2020-07-21 02:45 pm

Tuesday: turns out it really is about the staff

Our district is still pursuing the hybrid and remote options and had presentations about them this evening. I watched the elementary one but was unable to get into the secondary one and never could make the youtube live thing work. *shrug* Tomorrow is the special ed one; I am not sure I will bother, but maybe.

Meanwhile, Fairfax, which was going to go down the same path, has abruptly switched to the California option. I was surprised! They were running almost exactly 50/50 parents wanting hybrid vs remote only. The staff was running more like 40/60 and that was after a lot of detailed leveraging being applied by administration to staff. This happened more or less hours — less than a full day — after the largest union in Florida filed a lawsuit to stop the fall school reopening.

I had not paid a ton of attention to the vote in LA by the teachers union in Los Angeles Unified School District a week or so ago, but I went back and took another look at that timeline. I had also been seeing headlines go by in Education Week speculating about whether there would be teacher strikes. Those are rare, so I tend to not believe they will happen until they actually do. I may or may not link fu this post later, but the short form for now is that schools are not going to be reopening anywhere in the fall. They may spend a bunch of money redoing their HVAC and buying hand sanitizer, but it ain’t happening. The staff will ensure that — and a big push to reopen may give us the First Ever National Teachers Strike.

I was trying to piece together why I did not pay more attention to that union vote in LA. I think fundamentally, it was my skepticism about teachers striking. They really only do that when parents will back them up, and parents have not shown readiness to do so. We are in very new territory here.

Back when Trump and DeVos were running out the length of rope allotted to them, I was sitting there in disbelief thinking wow, am I gonna have to confront a truancy officer? Is my country really so batshit that they will open the schools? Are we going to do a full Sweden, and deploy truancy measures to make kids attend in person? Really?

Turns out no. Thank goodness for teachers. The youngest do not have jobs or seniority or kids. The middle aged have jobs and kids but no seniority. And the ones whose kids are out and grown are in the high risk group. None of them have, at the same time, the power and the desire to reopen schools. They are our Last Best Hope against diving off that cliff into everyone needing an ICU bed at the same time.

ETA: Also had great phone convos with J. and with K. The sitter took T. to swim lessons and then over to her place to swim in the aboveground pool, then dinner and ice cream. Good times.

I took A. out for a walk when it cooled down a litle.

I walked with M.

ETAYA: I had a pleasant conversation with a real estate agent.
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2020-07-20 01:10 am
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One Last Analogy: day camp

When I was wee, if day camp was a thing, I never heard anything about it. I read about sleepaway summer camp in _Just Plain Maggie_ and other books, and I wanted to go so bad! Some time late in elementary school, we actually went as a whole class to some sleepaway thing. I remember making a shelter out in the woods. That was fun. A lot of bugs, tho, and kinda cold and damp because PNW. Summer school was something you could get through the school or maybe the rec center, but it cost money so no go there, either — well, until my sister had to do a makeup class of some sort, and then I said, hey, if she gets to go, then I do too! And I got to do a science summer class and we dropped eggs off the high school stadium roof (mine broke, I am not good at that sort of thing) and did model rockets and it was awesome.

Of course now, summer day camp is a Thing. I figured my kids might never get to do it, but A. does, and T. does sleepaway, so golden! Well, except everything is canceled this year.

But here is the thing. We all just Accept that school is a thing that goes on a break for parts of three months and working parents just have to Figure It Out. We just Accept that work hours and school hours do NOT line up, and we charge parents for xday before or after school or both, and we arrange to have after school activities like karate pick kids up to provide after school care if the family thinks that is better than xday.

WE DO NOT CARP AT PARENTS FOR PUTTING THEIR KIDS IN SUMMER DAY CAMP.

We do not expect that parents will simultaneously supervise their kids AND work at their jobs full time all summer. Duh.

We ALSO do not expect parents who sign up for xday or karate or whatever to figure out how to make this work for people who cannot afford the charge for xday or karate or whatever. We do not go, did you bring enough for everyone at them. We do not say, well, I would quit my job and financially struggle rather than sign my kid up for xday. Oh, wait, yeah, some people do that but we have mostly made them shut it.

And yet, when parents take a look at fall reopening being either 2 days a week max, or 100% remote, and decide to basically put together the moral equivalent of xday or summer day camp or whatever, suddenly it is all, privilege, and I would quit my job and financially struggle rather than hire a tutor, and Betsy DeVos will use this to end public education, and there will not be enough experienced teachers left to do the public schools because the pods will hire them all. (Conveniently, many, many educators have already been laid off and thus are presumably looking for jobs, possibly as pod tutors if the price and conditions can be negotiated in a way satisfactory to all participants. Always a hump to get over.)

OK, so, repeat after me: if it is okay to have private summer day camp and private sleepaway camp in the Before Times, what _precisely_ is different between that and hiring a tutor during the Now Times.

Because it looks exactly the same to me. It looks like schools were kinda slow and resistant to doing what needed to be done (year round school, reconfiguring education completely to reduce transmission risk meaningfully), and people who could solved the problem for their own families to bridge to whenever the school got it all figured out, if ever.

(Also, I am aware that summer camp need-based “scholarships” exist. Presumably, something similar could be set up for podded tutoring.)
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2020-07-20 12:13 am
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Remote Support for Remote Learning

As long as I am feeling incredibly annoyed anyway, I might as well get this idea out here.

My kids both have IEPs. Until last year, one was in an out-of-district placement (special ed consortium class); he came back in district last year, but was still in a substantially separate classroom, for those of you who have had occasion to view IEP forms and are familiar with the standard language. The other one was in a resource room program with an aide (we will call that mainstreamed for the peanut gallery, with the understanding that this is not a situation covered by a list of accommodations to be made by the classroom teacher).

Obviously, once things went to remote learning in the middle of March, IEP services ... sorta went on hold. Which I had no problem with. T.’s remote learning went spectacularly well. He enjoyed it and was almost entirely independent. I think I helped him with some math one time. And he asked me to help him find some supplies for an art project once. And I think he wanted me to play catch with him as a PE assignment at one point. I checked in with his teacher occasionally to make sure that things were not going horribly awry invisibly to me; she kept telling me how great he was doing. I was super happy about this, and very grateful. I was not hugely surprised; he is quite independent and he is in 8th grade. Was, anyway.

With A., however, things were very different. She was in fifth grade. She is NOT super independent. And she is struggling with a lot of emotional regulation right now; frustration is very difficult for her to manage. (That’s my girl!) That was true while school was still in person; there were a couple of really bad weeks where the team was emailing me trying to figure out how to help her, and they try very hard not to have to do that.

Oh, while I am here! I reallllllly hope that they laid off the math specialist. And I hope that she finds some sweet pod setup with people who love math puzzles, and that she decides to do that forever and never ever ever inflict her fucking math puzzles on a school system ever again. Lucky for her, I do not know her name. If I ever run across her in person, she is going to hear in detail what I think of her life choices as they impacted on my family. What I do know, is she nixed using Khan Academy. *eye roll*

Anyway. Once the special ed team figured out what they were going to do, they offered some zoom services. One of the things they offered was a one-day-per-week session where they helped A. with her school work. I was _super skeptical_. And yet, they were both helpful with the specific item they helped her with, and they helped A. a lot with her frustration level in general.

Because that was so helpful, I got to thinking about ways to make zoom schooling work better for kids whose parents are unable (because they are not there, because they do not know the material, because they do not know the language, whatever) to provide additional support on site. And what I concluded was that a LOT of what I did to help A. could have been done via a zoom session. Basically set up a few kids (a half dozen, plus or minus) with a helper in a zoom that stays open whenever the kids are doing schoolwork (6 kids per helper, I mean). Kids can type questions in the chat, or raise their hand or just speak up or whatever. The share screen is available to the helper can see what the kid is working on. If the kids are working on the same material, you could allow whatever level of socializing / helping each other among the kids that was deemed appropriate for the task / topic / group.

A. has been doing Camp Empow for a few weeks each summer. I do that in lieu of ESY (extended school year — that is summer school paid for by the district, for kids deemed to need it to avoid regressing) for A., because .. let’s just say that the ESY program was run by the people out of Conant and they are expletive deleted. Or at least they used to be. I would say, hey, maybe it is just me and my kids, except I’ve been here for long enough that I could name people who _want_ their kids in Conant, and still have to get advocates and threaten litigation to get Conant’s people to Do Their Fucking Jobs Already. I do not think it is just me. Anyway. This year, Camp Empow started out all virtual, and A. really hates wearing a mask (you would not even believe how many socks we went through trying to get socks she would tolerate. And the underwear. Jesus, the number of underwear we went through trying to find something that did not lead to meltdowns. You can say all you like about training kids to wear masks, but when you are still fighting to find socks and underwear that an 11 year old can tolerate, I hope you recognize that the mask thing is not going to be easy).

A little side comment here. Yes, we flew in June. Twice. And we went other places that required A. to wear a mask. I try to have three different mask options with me, because whatever she is wearing, after about an hour, she will get really upset with it. So you are gonna need choices.

Where was I? Oh, right. Camp Empow was basically 9-4 Zoom. Yikes. But a lot of that time was project time, and it was set up in exactly the kind of helper way I describe above. It is not perfect — A. still can get really frustrated and have meltdowns, but it works really well generally, and if it was not so very many hours in a row, I suspect the meltdowns would have been less frequent. They were also able to work through a lot of technical issues using zoom and the technical issues they struggled with were not necessarily ones that were solvable (one of them was solvable but they did not come up with it, but after a bit I figured out a temporary solution and later R. came up with a better solution and ultimately I bought a different monitor).

For younger children, and for kids who really do poorly with screens (not my kids!), in person support in some kind of pod context (whether that is in homes arranged by the parents or by a district, or in schools in a socially distanced way) is likely going to be necessary to meet FAPE requirements. As individuals and collectively, we should think long and hard before interfering with families who want to set this sort of solution up and fund it themselves, and we should learn from their experience and use it to inform whatever districts wind up needing to do.

But before we go jumping to that, I hope we do more along the lines of remote support for remote learning. It would enable us to benefit from the wisdom and experience of a lot of educators who have at least some technical chops, and who really do not want to do anything in person yet.